traumatised

I never felt this nervous before,
never!
A few days ago I thought it was usual to feel nervous, anxious and panic when I had my first paper overseas,
my feelings came very last minute when I was about to enter the exam centre,
the same happened this afternoon when I was sitting for my second paper.
Although I was well prepared,
I was just feeling bad,
I had this obsessive thoughts afraiding that I am not going to do well.
Am I in the aftermath of studying too much about the OCD, Beck's cognition distortions, or even Ellis's irrational beliefs?!
I started to realise that this is unusual!
I never felt this way before,
never,
even when I was doing my SPM and UEC!

I need therapy before I start helping patients who need therapy