The best damn thing

With a mix of sweats and rain drops,
I attended Avril Lavinge's live in KL.
I am dissapointed,
the whole show was only about 90 minutes,
no anchor,
no nothing
it's shorter than a football match.
She sang quite a lot of songs,
but come on,
300 bucks for 90 minutes?
Special thanks to those voices that objected Avril's concert.
I enjoyed myself,
but,
I am not sure if she was annoyed by those stupid limitations or whatsoever,
her singing was not as good as her cds,
she missed quite many high notes.
Anyway,
I believe this is once in my lifetime,
or perhaps,
I'll make myself to her concert in other countries next time to prove myself that she is actually very good in singing.
I just got annoyed by those stupid little things.
She said she has been here for a month and a half,
that's impressive,
how did she hide herself from everyone?

Pink drums,
pink piano,
pink guitar,
pink mic,
the best damn thing!

stop and stare

I stood outside my office,
I saw Citibank, OSK, KLCC, Menara Maxis, Celcome, Tokio Marine...etc
All big companies that you can name,
they are probably around me.
I stared at those buildings and I start thinking,
do I belong to here?
am I going to have my life like this till the end of my day?
Then I thought of "stop and stare",
stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go no where
yes I am moving to another stage of my life,
but I need to think,
I need to consider many factors,
to decide,
where should I go?
where do I belong?
what do I want?

Perhaps my first cheque with RM427.75 after a week of working?

are you bored?

I have been asked with a question "do you find the job boring?" for 2 days,
well,
do you really think that I will answer "yes" for the question?
what would you think if I answer yes?
For now,
I won't answer "yes" for the question because I have so much more to learn,
but let me assure you,
I will get bored sooner or later!
I just don't belong to this kinda office job!

Well,
I must confess that this job won't lead me to the end,
I mean,
in the market research field.
I will definitely go for psychology without a doubt,
anything in psychology (although research method is part of psychology).
But people,
do you see any job opportunity for psychology degree graduate?
please let me know if you found one.

Before getting bored by the job,
I am bored by the traffic condition every single day indeed,
especially rainy days during the critical hours,
bless me!

IT

My lecturer used to tell us that don't rely so much on technology as one day when it crumble,
we will all "gone".
I never doubted nor understood his statement,
but today,
I must say that I agree very much upon his statement.
Company gave me a laptop for working after office hours,
as it belongs to the company,
programers from the IT team did so many things to the laptop that I can't change the settings to the way I prefer,
the most important thing is,
I must go to the IT team whenever a small tiny problem occurs,
it delays me,
it overloads them from their normal job.
You can't imagine how busy I am,
my life is just "fading",
I don't know how good is my perseverance,
but at least for now,
and a year in the future,
I am gonna stick with this job.

I still like psychology best!

first day

How's my first day of work?
Not too bad,
just a very small minor thing that I still can't believe that I am actually entering the working environment "permanently".
I mean it is not like those part time job that I used to work,
can fool around or maybe be a little lazy sometimes,
this time it has to be very serious.
Ya,
so,
for a serious worker like me,
I am starring at 2 laptops concurrently,
I've got a super old, slow laptop from the company that I don't reall know how to use,
that's why I on my own laptop trying to figure everything out.
You know my 24 hours can be gone fastly now,
working in the super duper jam location,
my time to be away from home is basically from 8am to 7pm, Monday to Friday.
After 7pm I've got to take my bath,
have my dinner,
prepare some working stuff,
then bed time.
oh dear,
where's my life?!

Gambateh!

I am officially hired on 22nd August 2008,
will have my working life starting on 25th August 2008.
I never expect it to be happened in such a short period,
I totally have no time to slow down,
I have been busying with all sort of stuff everyday since I've got back.
It is a good sign,
but it just comes too quickly,
I just did not have time to stop and enjoy life.
Just persuade myself that I have to work very hard while I am still energetic,
I can enjoy my life when I retire,
now,
it is a time for working hard.
Gambateh!

Crap

Need to have my screams here,
I am called for a second interview!
They sent me an e-mail this morning asking me for a second interview post-lunch today,
but please,
I don't on my computer 24/7,
don't you think it is a little too rush?
Moreover,
they told me to wait until next week and somebody will give me a call,
but what is it now?
I am getting nervous,
I can't explain and express myself,
I am becoming a worrier.

***news update while I am typing this post***
I've got the reply from the PIC,
he wants me to give him a call for second interview arrangement tomorrow morning,
fiu~~~

*My scream and story continue as the following...*
I am becoming a worrier because I start thinking too much,
am I capable of the job?
can I fit in to their working environment?
do I need to send more resume?
how much can they pay me?
can I live my life with my salary?
can I stand for people's stabs?
what's my chance of job promotion?
etc etc etc...
I have too many questions to ask!

Oh GOSH!!!!
Is everything going to be alright?!
Oh DEAR!!!!
I did not have good sleep since the day I got back!
Oh MAN!!!!
What is what now?
Oh YA!!!!
I do not have enought working clothing!
CRAP!!!!!

出走

回来几天了，有些些不习惯。或许是我太适应了袋鼠国的生活，回来后感觉上有点格格不入。例如？
1. 情不自禁的一直会想喝tab water
2. 遇上很多讲话不经大脑，没有礼貌，粗俗的人
3. 太久没有在这里驾车，变得“斯文”了许多，也看不习惯大家驾车的恶行
4. 友善的人太少
5. 少了许多穿西装，打领带的白人

我真的有点想念袋鼠国，很想逃离现在这个许久没有进步的地方。或许会到袋鼠国，或许会到贝老公的家乡。总之，就是离开这里。

原来我在不知不觉中习惯了袋鼠国的一切！

interview

I had my very first formal job interview this afternoon,
it did not really match with my imagenary interview scene,
but the questions asked by the interviewers were common.
I managed to answer but I am not sure if the answers are perfect,
however,
I believe that they just want to see how well I can "communicate".
Yes,
mainly because the job position I applied for is very much rely on communication,
they want to see how can I delivery "communication" with my psychology degree.
I sort of like ruined up a little part,
that is what making me freak out that I might not getting the job.
They told me to wait for their call for second interview early next week if they consider hiring me,
I will be meeting with their COO that time.
I don't mind going for a second interview if there is a need but somehow it freaks me out!
I mean I have to answer questions that might be unexpected,
sometimes even if they ask "expected" questions,
I may screw up somewhere,
interview is a trap?!
Oh well,
talk about trap.
When the interviewer told me about giving me a small exercise to examine if I am capable of the position,
I started to think that with my "psychological experiences" in HELP,
expecially research experiences,
do they know that I may give them desirable answers?
They the interviewer went out,
starting from that point I have very strong sense that I will be being observed,
I acted very gently and did not dare to have "weird" actions.
I was proven right when the interviewer told me that there was a 2 way mirror in the room!
BINGO!
I did not waste my dad's money!
Can you see psychologists' spirit here?!
~~~the aftermath of attending and running too many experiments~~~

Well,
I really hope that they will call me for a second interview and offer me the job,
pray pray pray!

haze for dizzy mind

The first day I get back home,
starting to be busy.
Went shopping for formal clothing for Wednesday's interview,
bought a lot of things.
Plus a running nose,
I am half dizzy.
With a dizzy head and mind,
I need to keep myself awakening,
it makes my sickness worse.
With an allergic nose,
my flu do not "go away" easily especially when I do not sleep.
But then I found out that I have flu because of haze,
special thanks to our neighbour that have their forest burning,
my nose is as keen as dog and everything when haze is about to come,
my nose smells it.
With my dizzy mind I went to find out where's the location of the venue of interview 2 days later with dad,
I roughly know the place,
just need a confirmation.
With a dizzy mind I write dizzily,
I don't even know what am I writing now,
so,
good night.