Everything is back on track,
I am slowly handling and manipulating,
everything will be back to normal soon.
The only thing I need to worry is to get myself a new start,
on everything.
Faith!
28.6.09
27.6.09
loner
You know working life is just too tiring that you won't want to bother anything else!
I realised there are some issues going on out there,
and I better keep my eyes on it,
but I just can't be bothered!
I tried to figure out a balance on this,
but I just can't be bothered.
Sometimes I feel so guity and I start interfering on those issues that I should be taking care of,
and amazingly,
my interference actually did help to turn those issues out a little bit better.
I know I should be helping more,
but,
can I be left alone?
I just need some times for myself,
some times that I can do whatever I want to.
I am just so used to staying my life alone without having any others.
I realised there are some issues going on out there,
and I better keep my eyes on it,
but I just can't be bothered!
I tried to figure out a balance on this,
but I just can't be bothered.
Sometimes I feel so guity and I start interfering on those issues that I should be taking care of,
and amazingly,
my interference actually did help to turn those issues out a little bit better.
I know I should be helping more,
but,
can I be left alone?
I just need some times for myself,
some times that I can do whatever I want to.
I am just so used to staying my life alone without having any others.
23.6.09
22.6.09
chapter x
I actually realised that I don't belong to this position and this company on my second day of work,
as I was a fresh graduate and I didn't know what to expect (I am still learning on what to expect even until today),
I persuaded myself to give it a try,
I then work on this postion in this company till now.
I ocassionally think of quiting throughout the past few months,
and each time when I have this thought on my mind,
some changes will just occur in the office and I again persuaded myself to stay.
As I walk myself to where I am today,
I believe that my thoughts should be converted into reality.
I actually have a plan in mind and I am working on it to turn my plan truth,
I just can't be bothered by anything else as I am so fed up with everything,
it's time for an end.
(and I am sure ending is not always a sad one!)
as I was a fresh graduate and I didn't know what to expect (I am still learning on what to expect even until today),
I persuaded myself to give it a try,
I then work on this postion in this company till now.
I ocassionally think of quiting throughout the past few months,
and each time when I have this thought on my mind,
some changes will just occur in the office and I again persuaded myself to stay.
As I walk myself to where I am today,
I believe that my thoughts should be converted into reality.
I actually have a plan in mind and I am working on it to turn my plan truth,
I just can't be bothered by anything else as I am so fed up with everything,
it's time for an end.
(and I am sure ending is not always a sad one!)
19.6.09
Drinker
I drink coffee occasionally all this while,
I am not a super fan of coffee that I will need to drink at least 1 cup of coffee per day,
I drink it only when I want to.
This phenomenon has changed since the day I started working,
I still drink coffee when I want to and I limit myself to only 1 cup of coffee per day,
the changes is that the frequency of drinking coffee has been significantly increased.
I might drink coffee once a month last time,
but I drink coffee at least once a week now.
Not that I have become a fan of coffee (or what so ever),
but making myself a cup of coffee has become something I will do automatically.
I have greater urge in drinking coffee and I will just walk myself to the pantry for coffee.
Still,
I can't take the bitterness of coffee,
and bitterness of coffee is always the reason why I can't be a fan of it.
Then why am I drinking coffee?
Why do I have increase frequency of drinking coffee?
The answers might probably be the same as smokers,
some sort of unconscious addiction that we can't seem to get rid of it.
I am not a super fan of coffee that I will need to drink at least 1 cup of coffee per day,
I drink it only when I want to.
This phenomenon has changed since the day I started working,
I still drink coffee when I want to and I limit myself to only 1 cup of coffee per day,
the changes is that the frequency of drinking coffee has been significantly increased.
I might drink coffee once a month last time,
but I drink coffee at least once a week now.
Not that I have become a fan of coffee (or what so ever),
but making myself a cup of coffee has become something I will do automatically.
I have greater urge in drinking coffee and I will just walk myself to the pantry for coffee.
Still,
I can't take the bitterness of coffee,
and bitterness of coffee is always the reason why I can't be a fan of it.
Then why am I drinking coffee?
Why do I have increase frequency of drinking coffee?
The answers might probably be the same as smokers,
some sort of unconscious addiction that we can't seem to get rid of it.
18.6.09
也许这就是人生
偶尔忙了一整天，抑或浑浑噩噩的过了一整天，回家时经过面包店，看着橱窗上的蛋糕，你突然想起，原来今天是曾经身边那一位的生日。
嗯。
曾经这一天，费尽心思。虽不是自己的，但这一天跟自己的生日一样重要。要穿什么样的衣服，配什么样的鞋子包包；要在那家餐厅吃饭，蛋糕要不要事先放到餐厅厨房里，待会儿礼物要在哪个时间点拿出来，什么时候该给他生日之吻，希望他的生日愿望有你。。。
费尽心思。
“啊~” 你感叹。曾经是那么重要的日子，今天却是那么轻易的就度过了。
曾经那个人对你来说是多重要，
他的生日，现在却只有在恍然间才记得。
然后，你嘴角浅笑。
。。 。
也许，
这就是人生。
By Memolynn on 16th June 2009
今天是K的生日！
很多年前已经不再关我的事。
曾经 一直紧记着他的生日，
倒数，
犹豫要不要sms祝福他，
后来觉得一切都是多余的。
就连我的生日收到他的sms我也会一笑置之，
这一切真的变得很多余了！
很想问说：“你还在乎吗？你在乎什么？都已经不管你的事了！”
反正彼此都是彼此的故人了，
who cares?!
嗯。
曾经这一天，费尽心思。虽不是自己的，但这一天跟自己的生日一样重要。要穿什么样的衣服，配什么样的鞋子包包；要在那家餐厅吃饭，蛋糕要不要事先放到餐厅厨房里，待会儿礼物要在哪个时间点拿出来，什么时候该给他生日之吻，希望他的生日愿望有你。。。
费尽心思。
“啊~” 你感叹。曾经是那么重要的日子，今天却是那么轻易的就度过了。
曾经那个人对你来说是多重要，
他的生日，现在却只有在恍然间才记得。
然后，你嘴角浅笑。
。。 。
也许，
这就是人生。
By Memolynn on 16th June 2009
今天是K的生日！
很多年前已经不再关我的事。
曾经 一直紧记着他的生日，
倒数，
犹豫要不要sms祝福他，
后来觉得一切都是多余的。
就连我的生日收到他的sms我也会一笑置之，
这一切真的变得很多余了！
很想问说：“你还在乎吗？你在乎什么？都已经不管你的事了！”
反正彼此都是彼此的故人了，
who cares?!
17.6.09
不托不欠
欠了別人的人情，總有一天是要還的吧？天底下沒有免費午餐，只是，人有時會一廂情願，或者心存僥倖，天真過了頭，以為大大小小的人情債沒有需要償還的一天。
你欠的人情有多大，你要還的人情也就有多大。
我不喜歡欠人家人情。深情我欠得起，人情倒是我欠不起的，要欠我寧願欠感情的債。
世上有那麼多的人，誰要你偏偏愛上我？如果是命中注定，這筆債倒不是我欠你，說不定是你前世欠了我呢。前世你是我放生的白狐，今世你在我腳邊廝磨，難得今生可以再見到我，來向我報恩，你該感謝我為你圓夢才是啊。
就算不相信前世今生，愛情又何曾公平？
有些女人埋怨男人耗掉她的青春，話不能這麼說，男人的青春也是青春，保養得不好的男人例外。
愛情永遠沒法衡量誰賺了誰又虧了，兩個人為什麼要恨恨地數傷口，然後說：「我有六十二個傷口，但你只得五十七個！」，相愛的那個過程，你也是享受過的吧？
有一天，緣盡了，不要去計算誰欠了誰。都是自願的，憑什麼說：「如果不是你，我會比現在幸福，會比現在過得好！」這些苦澀而沒意義的話？如果不是我，你也有可能是一片空白。
江湖再見的那日，別問是緣還是債。情本來就是債，只是，我們往往要等到情盡的那天才恍然。
深情我欠得起
Jun 17th, 2009 by 張小嫻
不管是什么情，
我都希望不会被欠，
尤其是爱情！
我对我的爱情有洁癖，
有太多的事情是我所不能够容忍的，
我甚至会吹毛求疵，
鸡蛋里挑骨头！
这也就是为什么我是satu orang oriented。
你欠的人情有多大，你要還的人情也就有多大。
我不喜歡欠人家人情。深情我欠得起，人情倒是我欠不起的，要欠我寧願欠感情的債。
世上有那麼多的人，誰要你偏偏愛上我？如果是命中注定，這筆債倒不是我欠你，說不定是你前世欠了我呢。前世你是我放生的白狐，今世你在我腳邊廝磨，難得今生可以再見到我，來向我報恩，你該感謝我為你圓夢才是啊。
就算不相信前世今生，愛情又何曾公平？
有些女人埋怨男人耗掉她的青春，話不能這麼說，男人的青春也是青春，保養得不好的男人例外。
愛情永遠沒法衡量誰賺了誰又虧了，兩個人為什麼要恨恨地數傷口，然後說：「我有六十二個傷口，但你只得五十七個！」，相愛的那個過程，你也是享受過的吧？
有一天，緣盡了，不要去計算誰欠了誰。都是自願的，憑什麼說：「如果不是你，我會比現在幸福，會比現在過得好！」這些苦澀而沒意義的話？如果不是我，你也有可能是一片空白。
江湖再見的那日，別問是緣還是債。情本來就是債，只是，我們往往要等到情盡的那天才恍然。
深情我欠得起
Jun 17th, 2009 by 張小嫻
不管是什么情，
我都希望不会被欠，
尤其是爱情！
我对我的爱情有洁癖，
有太多的事情是我所不能够容忍的，
我甚至会吹毛求疵，
鸡蛋里挑骨头！
这也就是为什么我是satu orang oriented。
16.6.09
五马分尸
Went for a yoga session this evening,
it was a great experience,
but a little tough for me.
Anyway,
I just want to get myself sweating and burning fats,
the progress is not as important as the outcome.
I wanted to make myself doing this at least twice a week,
but this very first class has somehow terrified me a little bit,
shall just go to another class and see how everything goes,
hopefully I will have enough persistence in working this out.
五马分尸!
it was a great experience,
but a little tough for me.
Anyway,
I just want to get myself sweating and burning fats,
the progress is not as important as the outcome.
I wanted to make myself doing this at least twice a week,
but this very first class has somehow terrified me a little bit,
shall just go to another class and see how everything goes,
hopefully I will have enough persistence in working this out.
五马分尸!
14.6.09
soul out
Food + manicure + signed up for yoga classes = spending money
I thought by doing so I would feel a little happier,
not at all actually!
Yes I am happy at the moment when I am doing all the listed activities,
but when I stop,
I feel so empty.
Nothing was solved, and everything's mattered!
I thought by doing so I would feel a little happier,
not at all actually!
Yes I am happy at the moment when I am doing all the listed activities,
but when I stop,
I feel so empty.
Nothing was solved, and everything's mattered!
13.6.09
Proud
He was shocked and stunned when he saw me.
I am not sure whether I interpreted his facial expression correctly,
I guess it's either he feels shock to see me or he was shocked by hearing my greetings,
but I nodded my head to him before he could react and quickly turn my sight away to greeting others.
I'm gonna give myself a big applause!
he is nothing to me anymore!
I did not have any interactions with him,
it's just pointless!
I am so proud of myself for being able to walk out from the mist!
I am not sure whether I interpreted his facial expression correctly,
I guess it's either he feels shock to see me or he was shocked by hearing my greetings,
but I nodded my head to him before he could react and quickly turn my sight away to greeting others.
I'm gonna give myself a big applause!
he is nothing to me anymore!
I did not have any interactions with him,
it's just pointless!
I am so proud of myself for being able to walk out from the mist!
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