fall to pieces

Feelings deep inside my heart are just too complex,
they are pieces a little here and there,
and I don't know how to make them all in connection to tell a story.
My thoughts are there,
I am ready to tell,
but I just can't make a simple sentence to tell you the story.
Somehow it's like something missing here or there,
but when I am trying to find those missing's pieces,
I realise that they are actually here all the time!

This is something very abstract to explain or tell in words.
One thing I can assure is that,
you love,
that's why you care,
and it just will makes you mad that you don't know who you are anymore.

I am kinda like lost,
am I deeply in love?

我喜夯你！

我每天早上起床都会觉得“其实我并没有很喜欢你。”
“嗯！对！不喜欢你了！”
可是一到了office情况就开始改变了，
“我好像真的有那么一点点喜欢你咧。”
这到底是为什么？

Timing

在想，
如果有一天，
我不再喜欢你了，
但你却喜欢上我了，
怎么办？
没有的办，
如果这时命运的安排，
我唯有接受。
“timing” 常常都是爱情里很重要的元素之一，
真心相爱又怎样？
相遇在不对的timing，
你我也只能行同陌路人。

我唯有希望，
你现在不喜欢我，
将来也不会喜欢我。
（这样我会好过一点）

今天只做一件事

发觉这世界永远太少空间
因此花一天支配一切时间
发觉这世界永远太晒心机
因此花一天思索一切道理

消失太快 捉得到太少
因此花一天感觉一切是爱
茫茫人海 或有几多漂泊与淹盖
人人寻找爱 或有几多争斗与比赛
越觉得剩低几多未变的爱

慢慢地合作新诗 静静地同床午睡
再发现岁月换来几次厌闷几多亲爱
有各样劫灾 和充满意外
因此我要努力继续能恋爱

慢慢地迈向听朝 静静地怀念昨日
再决定今天只要相信爱
叫皱纹散开 唤青春归来
因此我喜欢花一天感觉一切是爱

发觉这世界永远太少深刻
因此花一天改变一切习惯
发觉这世界永远太多跷蹊
因此花一天拥有一切运气

消失太快 捉得到太少
因此花一天感觉一切是爱
茫茫人海 或有几多漂泊与淹盖
人人寻找爱 或有几多争斗与比赛
越觉得剩低几多未变的爱

慢慢地合唱K歌 静静地同游网上
再发现岁月换来几次厌闷几多亲爱
有各样劫灾 和充满意外
因此我要努力继续能恋爱

慢慢地迈向听朝 静静地怀念昨日
再决定今天只要相信爱
叫皱纹散开 唤青春归来
因此我喜欢花一天感觉一切是爱

喜欢花一天跟你一切是爱

你也难怪我这么喜欢陈奕迅，
歌声+歌的旋律=满足！
这首歌的旋律真的很舒服，
听了很让人放松，
很适合最近有点紧绷的我。
心灵上的安慰原来就是这么一回事！

好想每天都说：“今天只做一件事”！
睡觉是也！

love with the 7 prosperities

Have been working on night shift for a few nights,
still need some times to adapt.
My world is basically at peace if nothing urgent or crazy come in,
otherwise you will be seeing me working like mad in front of 2 laptops.
Staying up late for work,
waking up early for meetings,
my days have not have gone any easy,
and sometimes,
it is rather stressful.
But when I log on to facebook,
see all the posts and comments posted by you all,
I can just simply laugh out loud.
You know friends just don't have to be sticking with each other every single day,
knowing how and what you all are doing is just enough for me.
And sometimes,
a small little joke in facebook.
It is great to have you all there!
It's like what I have always been telling Ming,
thanks for talking crap to me!

Love ya'all!

24/7 working hours

Beck's new working hours:
11am-5.30pm (in the office)
11pm-1am (offical working hours, vary depending on related situation).

So when you see me online at night don't simply come and kacau me,
I am WORKING!

情歌

时光是琥珀 泪一滴滴被反锁
情书再不朽 也磨成沙漏
青春的上游 白云飞走苍狗与海鸥
闪过的念头 潺潺的溜走
命运好幽默 让爱的人都沉默
一整个宇宙 换一颗红豆
回忆如困兽 寂寞太久而渐渐温柔
放开了拳头 反而更自由
慢动作 缱绻胶卷 重播默片 定格一瞬间
我们在 告别的演唱会 说好不再见
你写给我 我的第一首歌
你和我 十指紧扣 默写前奏
可是那然后呢
还好我有 我这一首情歌
轻轻的 轻轻哼着 哭着笑着
我的 天长地久

今天很开心的边驾车回家边哼着这首歌，
嘴角微微上扬隐藏不住笑意。
嗯，
想起他的时候真是美好！

complimentary

PK asked "why don't you want to involve in a marriage?"
Well,
quite a number of factors make up answer for this.
She didn't seem to agree with me,
we just have different point of view.
We don't share exactly same experiences,
and as experiences make up who you are,
you will just have different point of view from me regarding the question of marriage.
To you,
marriage might be A,
but to me,
marriage is just B.
We will just view it from different angles.

As I walk my journey to this far,
relationship has somehow become complimentary.
It will be real great to have it,
but I won't be dying for it.
It is just something that would enlighten my life,
but my life won't be in a total darkness without having it.

It is complimentary and I won't die because of not having it!

老男人

二十歲的女生愛上一個三十歲或者再大一點的男人，喜歡的不一定是他的財富地位，而是他的成熟。對於早熟的女生來說，那些跟她同齡的男生都好像還沒斷奶似的。她沒法愛上一個思想比她幼稚的男人。她喜歡的是一個有過去的男人，這個男人會為她打開人生的另一扇窗口，教給她許多她不懂的事情。

截自“小嫻部落” 06052009

现在你知道我为什么从以前一直都喜欢“老男人”。

恍然大悟

思念就跟愛情一樣，是會耗盡的。頭一個星期，我很想你。第二個星期，我更想你。又一個星期過去了，我想你想得好苦，恨不得馬上奔跑到你身邊。然而，到了第四個星期，我發現我沒那麼想你了。不是不愛你，而是我知道，這樣的想念是沒有歸途的。日復一日，我再怎麼想你，還是見不著你，摸不到你，只是用思念來苦苦折磨自己。我得過自己的生活。

截自“小嫻部落” 04052009

不怪得去了几天旅行回来后，
我赫然发现，
其实根本好像没那么喜欢他！
看来我还得好好的加把劲儿。