安全

科技发达，
哪里说话，
用什么语言说话，
已经变得不太安全。

这里安全吗？

期限

尝味期限，
试用期限，
适用期限。。。

我们的生活里都被许许多多的“期限”所包围，
一年365天，
期限日期并没有在我脑海里留下“深刻”的印象。

1）试用期限里决定何去何从
2）五月尾前决定对/错的人

遗失的美好

有多久不曾在熙来攘往的闹市中停下脚步，感受一下这一片天空所散发出来的气息？

有好长一段的时间都马不停蹄的在赶，
深怕错过了任何重要的事项。
事情每一天都堆积如山，
根本不曾好好的停下来把时间留给最深处的自己。
蓝天，白云，阳光常在
，只是不知道什么时候一切都变得理所当然。
每一天都来去匆匆，
烦人的事情不曾停止，
但蓝天，白云，和阳光一直都默默的在身旁竭尽所能的提醒着我它们一直都在。

今天下午的十五分钟，
一样蔚蓝的蓝天，朵朵的白云，暖和的阳光，和徐徐吹来的微风，
我终于醒了。
这一切美好的事情不曾停止，
我也不应该忘了享受它们的存在。
又是时候一个人去展开找寻自己的旅程了。

SCREW

I wanted to shout this out loud for a few days already,
"FUCK my working life! screw it! it's sucks, and I don't deserve to have it this way!"
No place to shout this out,
and this is the only place I can be myself.
FUCK IT!

就这样

只想记得开心快乐的事，
伤心难过的事情，
我不想重复的提起，
也不想永远记得。
所以，
就这样。

Farewell

It all started before I went on holiday,
and I am now too tired to tell.
I spent my energy fully everyday just to deal with it,
I feel so sick about it that I wanna quit.

I just can't stand it anymore!

再别记忆

之前帮三妹复习经济，
发现把经济都还给老师了，
赶紧把高三的经济课本找出来“还原”记忆。
课本里塞了很多张纸，
其中有几张是我和PK以前的“聊天室”，
里头聊的都是以前为情所困的烦恼。
我边看边笑，
而且是真心的笑得很大声的那种。
啊！
原来我也有忘记那一切的一天，
就这样我花了6年来不知不觉的忘记了那一切。

很开心原来7富贵们陪我度过了不只6年的时光，
也很开心原来我并没有放不下，
很开心的发现原来我已经没有不开心。

就这样他悄悄的走进了我的生命，
又悄悄的带走所有关于他的一切离开了。

Balance

Eat Pray Love.
A story that tells exactly what I am feeling now,
and reveals most of my thoughts.
I am probably not at the age of "praying",
and not at the stage of "loving",
I am more into "eating",
in the sense that I'd like to travel to another country for a short break.
It's true that I really don't know why and what am I working,
and I really am a little sick of it,
I need something new that have not appeared in my life yet.
I basically would like to live a different life.

A story is still a story,
regardless of whether I have the courage to do what I want,
it will eventually comes to the problem of money.
Money does matter in our life,
and can be quite influential.

All these basically come from a fundamental want in life - balancing,
and sometimes, losing balance is part of balancing in life...

Nightmare

I had a "nightmare",
my very "last" dream in the morning that woke me up.

I dreamt about having fight with the King,
throwing files on table,
banging the drawers,
throwing tantrum,
argue defiantly.
He then called for meeting and refused to let me join in,
because I quarreled with him and not showing him respect.

I am a little terrified by the dream that I didn't want to talk to him in the day,
just so my dream won't turn real.
It's really =.=

Lost and not found

Have been quite busy recently,
but when I look back,
I really cannot think of what have I been busying with.
I guess it's due to having been surrounded by negative energy for quite some time,
and I haven't really sit down by myself and think about the next step.
This negative energy is so powerful that it's significantly affecting my thoughts,
and the thoughts are very powerful in swinging my mood.
Disappointment, disagreement, discontentment... etc.
I find no interest in anything,
and I just want to be by myself,
but when I am alone,
I don't feel secure as how I used to feel when I am in my own world.

I have always been wanting a change,
but I just have not been taking the big step to move forward.
I still find opportunities in the status quo,
and I just can't convince myself to move on.
I know the status quo is not the "ultimate opportunity" that I want,
I really won't die for this and I can't imagine seeing myself "stucking" in this until the end,
I gotta change it now before it's too late.

And I just can't take the step forward and move away,
why?
Am really losing myself.