金睛火眼 @_@

I have been working under high pressure and tension ever since my ex-manager leave the company,
I am both mentally and physically tired everyday.
I wake up everyday with my works start running in my head,
I go to bed everyday with my works continue running in my head too!
Basically,
except for my lunch and dinner time,
and also TV time after dinner,
I am staring at the computer doing work.

Is this common for working adults?

如火如荼

友人说：“你不可能在11/5/2009之前忘记他！”
我不以为然，
我坚决相信我要做的一定办得到！
过后仔细想想，
友人的话并不是没有道理。
我每天跟D接触，
每一天好像都会发现那么一点他的好，
每一天都会不小心的沉沦，
我又怎么可能用5个月来忘记？
其实之前为自己定下5个月的期限是有原因的，
因为到时将会是我离开跟他朝夕相对的场合的一个月后。
暌违一个月后，
我想我应该不会对他再有任何“非分之想”吧？！
应该不会了。

5个月计划如期进行，
现在应该如火如荼的展开！

原谅我就是这样的女生

我说：“男人不坏女人不爱！”
他答：“am I bad then?”

难怪我一直止不住不小心沉沦！
抑或是其实有太多的时候，
我只是一厢情愿的以为现实是我所想像的那样？
我只想要在他心中占有那么一点位置啊！

不爱了

I stand right in front of you,
and I am smiling at you,
telling you that "yes, I don't love you!" with bleeding heart inside.

Great!
By doing this I have achieved another higher grade in my life,
含笑说不爱！
不然为什么张小娴写到“世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死，而是我就站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你！”

You must have had a broken heart

The way you say the things you do
The softness of the words you choose
The times that you can read my mind
And take my worries out of sight

Your fingers touching on my lips
And say a kiss is still a kiss
And when you look at me I see
I see the pain that you had to feel

You must've had a broken heart, to love me the way do
Must've been so torn apart, I can see it when I look at you
All the meaning that is in your eyes, the love you give will never die
And I knew right from the start, you must've had a broken heart

You seem to have that certain smile
I can't forget after a while
The day you walked into the room
At once I knew the hurt that you'd been through

Sometimes when its late at night and I see your face in the fire light
Showing all the love you have for me, well I love you as much

Sometimes, sometimes
Must've had a broken heart
All the meaning that is in your eyes, the love u give will never die
And I knew right from the start, you must've had a broken heart
Sometimes.....


Yes I had a broken heart!

rose

“烈火雄心”里王喜和李珊珊是笔友，
彼此无话不说，
而王喜更因此而喜欢上了李珊珊。
后来两人终于见面了，
发展成为情侣，
最后却赫然发现，
两人似乎比较适合当笔友。
只有通过文字，
他们才能真正的畅所欲言。

或许我跟他就是“烈火雄心”里的王喜和李珊珊，
只有在MSN我们才能无话不说，畅所欲言，
那才是我们习惯的相处模式。

我告诉自己，
这一次就用5个月！
5个月来放下一切。
05112009

Some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed

Some say love it is a hunger
an endless, aching need
I say love it is a flower
and you its only seed

it's the heart afraid of breaking
that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
that never takes the chance

it's the one who won't be taken
who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dying
ehat never learns to live

when the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong

just remember in the winter
far beneath the bitter snow
lies the seed that with the sun's love
in the spring, becomes the rose

后续

他说了不相信远距离恋爱，
我自己也不太相信，
怎样说服别人？
他只需要一句不相信远距离恋爱，
我就知道我们可以bye bye了。

其实我也没有想象中伤心，
今天还是跟往常一样跟他有说有笑，
根本不觉得怎样。
我有些担心这个“很平静”的我，
究竟是不是真的这么放得开？
就连一丁点想哭的感觉都没有！

用了5年才找到他，
结果却发现找错人，
我不知道我还可以有多少个5年来找到对的人。

~~~爱神会悄悄的在你不留意的时候来敲你的门~~~
哈哈！
我不止一次敲了爱神的门，
却得不到回应。
我只怕当它终于找上我的时候，
我已经关上大门，
闲人免进！

我只是不甘心，
为什么？！
为什么我找的就是不对的？
天时，地利，人和，
上一个少了天时和人和，
这一次少了地利和人和，
反正每次就是少了那么一点点。

无言!

bye bye

He does not believe in long distance relationship,
and he used to have a chance to start a long distance relationship,
but he just didn't.

Conclusion: I just gonna say bye bye to him.

I think I can fall asleep easily tonight!

煎熬

煎熬！
我真的不知道还可以忍到什么时候！
告诉自己：“去睡吧！睡醒就会没事了！”
但躺在床上翻来覆去无法入睡。
脑海里有太多东西在processing，
停不下来。
脑不停的在想，
我无法入睡。
很乱，
一片杂乱！
想不要我的脑了，
是不是不要我的脑我就不会有烦恼？

我要结婚去！

上个星期五他去参加朋友的婚礼，
他是兄弟团之一。
今天听他“诉说”怎样被整，
让我笑他说：“讲到好像是你的婚礼酱。”
结果他说：“我觉得以后我结婚还是不要有婚礼好。”
然后我告诉他说：“我也没想过要有个婚礼。”
他答说：“酱我们两个结婚就不用有婚礼啰！”

你们到底发什么神经？
一个接一个的来跟我说一起结婚？！
好！
你不要给我敢敢死的跟你讲：“走，现在就去注册！”
我要结婚去！